Some questions from a friend (hard ones too!):
1. If you had to define what you think or feel The Light looks like—what would you say? I think it is like a symphony being played deep within the centre of life, but not just music: colours, textures, feelings and emotions, too. It is the symphony of life itself, everything is encompassed and it all harmonises. It plays in total harmony and that is its natural order, it is so sweet and melodic that we don’t usually notice it, something like white noise perhaps. Only when we align our own vibrations and harmonies to it, do we step inside and see its full magic. Align ourselves with the present moment, after all, that is where The Light is found.
2. do you ever feel like you want to hunt? My idea of bliss would be to go out of the back door right now and hunt. But not wild animals. I would hunt mushrooms or bits of fallen bark, or a bird call. And funny enough, I would also LOVE to dress the part ;). I would wear a long green skirt and have a leather belt slung low around my hips with a medicine bag swinging even lower. I would have a bow and arrow. My shoes would have to be made of supple leather. If I stayed out long enough, like days, I would naturally hunt a squirrel or a hare and eat it. I have no problem with that.
I have harboured this fantasy for a very long time, as long as I can remember, it represents my wild self and if you catch me staring out of the window at any time, this is probably what I would be thinking about. I have a small collection of leather medicine bags that I have made myself over the years, some knitted. I love the song – “The Mending Drum” by Carolyn Hillyer. This song is about hunting to find berries to bless her drum in order that it may heal. That would be my kind of hunt party.
My childhood was influenced very greatly by Robin Hood (someone I can still communicate with, if I sit for a while inside a bush). We had a t.v. programme in the UK called Robin of Sherwood, with the most kick-ass, gorgeous, sex-on-legs Robin ever (In fact, I have now been inspired to write another post solely on this t.v show alone). Nothing could ever be as good as this Robin Hood. The show was the North Point of my Compass when I was a teenager. With mystical, spiritual, nature-worshiping Robin running bare-chested through the undergrowth with Marion at his side. My perfect hunt would be with the spirit of him as the Greenman, (the soul of Ancient Britain – something also close to my heart) as I shot that golden arrow into the air.
I have to laugh, this is the theme tune from the original 1983 Robin of Sherwood, I love Clannad’s clothes and sunglasses, it’s so 25 years ago and see what I mean about sex-on-legs? How could any 15 year old girl resist this?:
3. if you were to write an autobiography—what would the opening sentence be? Each year as dusk fell on the evening of October 31st, I would hear a faint call from out-of-doors to go and run wild; the urge was strongest when the moon was full.
4. if that story were to be made into a film, whom would you want to play you? Kristian Scott-Thomas in her earlier years.
5. what’s the last thing you will ever give up? Well, I thought and thought about this one and when it comes down to it, I have to say my children.
6. what are your views about the money energy and money in general? were you raised with specific views about money either + or -? Hmmm, well, right now, I live a very simple life, without many dealings in money from day to day. If I need some cash for food or stuff, I ask my partner for a few euros. We have a tin. Further than that remains a bit of a mystery to me, but I like it that way. We have no debt. When I lived in Hong Kong I was £8,000 in debt for a while – it really screwed me up mentally to know that I couldn’t control my life. I worked very hard at a job I disliked for nine months to pay every penny off and then I quit the job. I’d rather try to live without debt, if that is possible in this day and age. We never had money when I was younger, my mother always strived for more material things in her life, my father would have been happy with none. I think I inherited my father’s attitude.
7. what are your pet peeves? People who brush their teeth and leave the toothbrush on the counter instead of putting it back in the pot. But as a rule, I am pretty easy-going.
8. what animal do you think most resembles your personality? Mostly a wolf, (faithful mother) I have several others too: A hare, an owl and a deer. There are shades of whale in me too.
9. what was your fav animal as a child? rabbits and owls, I also loved horses with a passion.
10. your fav time of day? Dusk
11. favorite fragrance, aroma,smell? freshly harvested hay filled with wild flowers.
12. fav colour as a child? deep purple
13. colour that most reflects your personality? baby blue and chocolate brown – must come together.
14. colour you like to wear most? the two colours above plus light grey.
15. fav season? autumn, without a doubt
16. fav smell associated with that season? the harvest, damp leaves, mushrooms and undergrowth
17. fav landscape? I love a seashore in the spring or autumn, high winds and sea spray are fantastic for knocking out the cobwebs.
18. in your meditations-do you go to a specific landscape for full relaxation? if so, where? the above
What a gorgeous look inside that wildly creative mind that you have. I love the answer about your children, because when it all comes down to it, that is our rebirth, that is our future and that is all that matters. PS thanks for the hotness in the woods!
Great questions, great answers. (I can totally see you padding softly through the forest hunting and gathering along side the greenman’s spirit.)
And, OMG, I cannot believe I missed out on this Robin Hood series. My little teenage heart would’ve exploded. I may have to find the DVD on amazon.
i forgot about this post!!!! juts read it again after 2 years.
are youstill the same? well, nobody is yet everyone is…
.better to ask—how would you answer the above differently i guess….?
I read through these again last week and changed nothing much…….I guess I am still pretty much the same, funny that really, since so much has seemed to have happened since then.
yes the light is found in the present moment. thanks for writing that.
I love pondering this question…it the everything for sure. every rainbow. every eye. every symphony. all harmonies. every smile. every soul.
for me–sometimes, nearly rhetorically, i cant help but see the sun as the quintessential image of light. of god. of gold and fire. as a him. as The Light. as a father protector. the warm constant relaible healthy wholesome heat. Gives me shelter food life. Makes me see everything clearly by being light itself.. Touches everything and makes it grow and live.
i love what you wrote ”deep withn the centre of life”.
where is that?
deep within the centre of life, that is just here, right now, nowhere else, with the mind nowhere else but right here, guess you could call it the sun’s heart centre, something like that….